Friday, October 14, 2011

right after this,

i'm going to die i guesssssssssss



Seriously. These are my reactions

I just need to get this off my chest. I like this boy. I guess. I’m not quite sure but I think I like him. There’s this friend of mine, he teased us both a lot. saying him and I were both couple when we’re not. Hee. I don’t mind getting teased by my friend cause it is not true. I’m not dating him anyway so yes, I ignore it. But I get shy when people teased me for something that you know, kinda oh well you know how the story goes right? :P Hee. But then, I realized maybe I like him, the one who got teased with me. I don’t know why, just maybe there is something between us or so thats what I think. hmm :/ He’s cute, charming, crazy, loveable not to mention he is so hot. I get shy when I see him but try to act normal as possible ==” When he smile, ohmyyy. My world just spin around like merry go round :) His smile is like a cure :) you don’t need an apple a day to cure when you have him :P hehe.
 I think he knows I like him. hmm. I don’t know maybe cause I make it obvious X.X damnit danny you did it again x.x Can’t help it, he is too charming. hee. I love love love teasing him. I just wished that by teasing, making jokes is to make he smile, laugh if possible, he would like me, fall for me,like me. I  just love to make people happy and smile, laugh cause life are too short to be miserable. hee. How I wish he knows I try hard to make him smile :) But then I don’t think he like me just because hmm I can be very annoying sometimes. I don’t know. I feel like I lose the game even before I’m in the game. you get what I mean? :/ I’ve been out of this game called love for too long and maybe Im rusty but I still got that charm, I think. hmm. Maybe Im dreaming, maybe Im too hopeful. Maybe Im the only one who play the game the whole entire time. But I swear he like me too… but maybe again, Im dreaming. hmm. It is just sad you know, you can’t have someone that you like so badly. Sometimes when you feel like you found the one, you’ll end up dissapointed.  I don’t want to feel that again, and again. I hate being used, I hate it when that someone you love take you for granted. Thats why I tell myself very often when Im about to fall for someone , 
” hey, you don’t like him, you just attracted to him, probably he has someone that he like, someone special, he’s never going to notice you, stop liking someone for no reason . ” 
that is some of the things I tell myself very often nowadays. It is just hard you know, after being dissapointed by someone that you care so much, suddenly you don’t know what love is anymore. Okay, what the hell did I just said ==”
p/s : the heart got to speak what it feels somehow. sorry if  I bored you :)








Wednesday, October 12, 2011

kurang ajarnya tetap santun

kalau memuji, tapi menghina di balik pokok,
kalau bersuara lantang di bawah tempurung,
manakan sama dengan membakar seluas padi hitam
manakan sama menempik sekeliling pekan?


kalau memburuk sesuatu yg masih di sanjung,
kalau memetik bunga lari jauh-jauh,
padankah hendak diduga si biru tua?
padankah membakar gunung berapi?


kau fikirlah anak muda lanjut usia.











Tuesday, October 11, 2011

M E

I shouldn't play with my emotion. I got a lot of strong words to make me stay strong but when it comes to you, I lost. I wonder if my eyes blind. I shall stop doing things I don't like to do, I shall stop hoping. I shall.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

morning thought.













bukan bahasaku

kalau dibilang pada bahasa, ya nggak papa.
mana-mana aja sama , yg penting mesej nya itu turun ke naluri.
bukan mau kamu kekagetan, tapi rasanya ya nggak apa-apa.


kenapa manusia itu lari terus dari problemnya? bukan kah kesulitan itu didirikan sendiri?
untuk apa akal tercipta? yang pasti bukan hanya untuk menyatukan satu raga.
dan mengapa kamu bercinta?
untuk dilukai kek, untuk dijadikan pacaran masa muda kek, apa untuk jadi pendorong mu?
atau mungkin kalian yang terdorong untuk terus angkuh menjadi manusia yang lupa tentang dari mana asalnya usulmu.


kamu nggak harus gitu doang.
nggak ada gunanya menyimpan perasaan berbeda dalam hati.
cintamu juga nggak akan suci.
lalu jiwa ku terdera. 


nggak ada raja yang bakal tumbang kerana maharaninya.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

keluar lagi

haha.kat sini sumpah mati kutu. tp seb baek sini boleh kuar. tambang pun mcm lagi murah. sebab sewa kete sejam baru rm 5, minyak kancil pun brape sgt lah kan? so, kalau dah bosan sangat tu, mmg ke kuantan lah aku terbang. mane ade boring sgt kuantan tu? cume yelah, barang depa mmg mahal2 nak mampuih. padahal jual dekat pasar malam aje -.-


Sunday, October 2, 2011

The truth may hurt.


tolong lah nak sangat beg, kasut kulit dengan baju mcm ni :(






I'm tired of being all alone.


i don't know if you're gone.



times change, people change but still,
the memories stay.




i wish you were here.

Saturday, October 1, 2011